Then & Now
This year, I turned 39. When I was a kid, my family would ask me, “Do you feel like you’re 10?” or “Do you feel like you’re 12?” At that time, I would think to myself, “What kinda question is that”. Because in my mind, it was like nothing has changed but the day. Now that I am 39, I can say, I feel like my age. But not in a bad way. It’s like in a way that makes me want to just be me. I want to be who I am. You’re probably like what the heck does that mean. It means I cannot play a fake for anyone. What I feel I feel and I’m willing to voice that. What I want to say and how I want to say it, I don’t feel as though I need a permission slip completed in order to say that thing!!! I just want to be me. For years, I would hear women talking with the high, squeaky voice. I would think, dang I want the high, squealy voice. Until now. Baby you gone get this deep one and either you like it or you don’t. Now, I will say, I’m not like around here Barry White-ing, but I got a lil low tone on me!!! LOL. I just tickled myself with that one.
At some point in our lives, we have to learn to feel comfortable with ourselves. We have to accept who we are. We have to accept the person we see in the mirror. What if I told you that if you have a problem with the person in the mirror that you can change her? It’s true and it’s possible. It’s all up to you and what you want and like. Until you can be comfortable with who you are, inside and out, you will never feel comfortable with anyone or around anyone. It doesn’t happen overnight, but if you put forth the effort to work on yourself it will happen. And even in those small steps, you will begin to notice a change. It just comes down to one question…Are you willing to work on yourself, for yourself??? Think on it.
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.”
II Corithians 5:7